Yeah. And that's exactly what it was. When I tried to use it, it blew up on me and Hope and... we got swallowed by a massive amount of unstable chaotic energy. It reacted weird with my powers, I guess corrupting them, I dunno but... it forced me into a corrupted version of my form when using ZEXAL.
*He paused again, as if considering something, before continuing.*
... I have something I need to tell you guys.
I. I haven't been truthful, about my feelings over what happened to our home. Not to you guys, to my friends or... even to myself. I wanted to make sure you guys were okay, I wanted to support you and be your strength, but because of that, I ended up holding back and burying my own feelings over it, because I didn't want it to paralyze me. In reality, I felt so angry and frustrated over it. I really wanted to yell and scream! I wanted to know why we had to lose our home! Our friends! Our family! Who was responsible for attacking it?! And I felt guilty, because I wasn't there and because I can't do anything to change what happened! I can't do anything to bring everyone back. I would of done anything to have brought them all back, especially your family, Kotori!!
But because I was keeping all these feelings buried, they all came out when I was affected by the chaotic energy! I became so confused and angry. I couldn't tell who was friend or foe.... so I ended up accidentally taking out all that anger on Yuya, because in my confusion, I didn't know it was him. It made me think he was someone to blame over what happened to Heartland.
*Yuma stopped talking there to wipe away tears that had formed in his eyes, but it was very clear he was incredibly upset and had been fighting back the urge to cry through the entire thing.*
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Yeah.
And that's exactly what it was. When I tried to use it, it blew up on me and Hope and... we got swallowed by a massive amount of unstable chaotic energy.
It reacted weird with my powers, I guess corrupting them, I dunno but... it forced me into a corrupted version of my form when using ZEXAL.
*He paused again, as if considering something, before continuing.*
... I have something I need to tell you guys.
I.
I haven't been truthful, about my feelings over what happened to our home. Not to you guys, to my friends or... even to myself.
I wanted to make sure you guys were okay, I wanted to support you and be your strength, but because of that, I ended up holding back and burying my own feelings over it, because I didn't want it to paralyze me.
In reality, I felt so angry and frustrated over it. I really wanted to yell and scream! I wanted to know why we had to lose our home! Our friends! Our family! Who was responsible for attacking it?!
And I felt guilty, because I wasn't there and because I can't do anything to change what happened!
I can't do anything to bring everyone back. I would of done anything to have brought them all back, especially your family, Kotori!!
But because I was keeping all these feelings buried, they all came out when I was affected by the chaotic energy! I became so confused and angry. I couldn't tell who was friend or foe.... so I ended up accidentally taking out all that anger on Yuya, because in my confusion, I didn't know it was him. It made me think he was someone to blame over what happened to Heartland.
*Yuma stopped talking there to wipe away tears that had formed in his eyes, but it was very clear he was incredibly upset and had been fighting back the urge to cry through the entire thing.*